Well, I've thought a bit about whether or not to blog about this...and clearly, I made my decision. This blog is about my life in Korea. The good and the bad. So, here we go.
This past weekend, my on and off 5 year relationship ended. This time, it seems like the true end. I know I've said this before but, through all of the tears shed the last couple of days, I've come to realize that the relationship had run its course.
We moved to Korea together. We did that. But Korea was not the reason for the end. I believe our souls have grown apart over the months that we've been here. It probably would have happened anywhere. And he had the courage to do what I could not.
And gosh, I am sad. I ache and I feel sick and I don't know what to do with myself. I miss him. I miss us. It's only been 2 days, so I know it will get better.
But this can be an opportunity, right?
It's led to a lot of questions for what my next move will be. I mean, if I'm honest with myself, I came here for him. Sure, I wanted to travel--but for a whole year? Having a partner made it sound much more appealing to the homebody that I am. I don't know if I will stay here for the rest of my 6 months, but I do know I will try to stick it out as long as I can. Maybe, as an independent woman, I will experience more. I hope this is true.
So, readers. Please send some love to both my and Justin's way. Please send us warmth for our hearts and hope for our respective futures.
I'm off to teach some kiddos. Thank goodness for work, to get me out of my mind!